Dreams,

JM's here to save her blog from dying!

i think i should stop talking a 3rd person,

it's kind of becoming a habit right now and people might think tht i'm just weird.

today's crit is damn freaking screwed and fucked up

thks guys for calling me out at th right time

i really needed those laughters

been really busy with school life and social life

hahahahas.

and now i feel like a part of them

they are really nice people

and since they are gf's best friends so they are mine too.

actually i am really happy that she have them as friends

at least when i'm not in singapore and when hidayat is in army

i will know tht thr will definately be someone thr t take care of her

and lend her his/her listening ears when she needs them

and they will be able t give her good advice when she needed one

at least they are th people i know who will not just leave her alone t face all these by herself

it's true that i can't bear t leave gf here alone,

but i know she have t learn t grow up and i have t work hard for my future.

i have a lot going through my mind right now

every min in this course, i just feel like giving up and flying t Sydney immediately

but i know i cant just give up like that. i need t persevere till th end

since i was th one who chose this course, i just need t finish it.

it's contradicting,

i cant wait for yr3 t come, but yet i dont want time t pass t quickly

cause i wna spend more time with gf, friends and family.

i'll miss them badly, real bad

i think i will at least need ard 5-6yrs in Sydney bfor coming back.

i'm still thinking how am i gna cope without them.

- finally i have sorted out my mind abt sth

sth tht i didn't have th courage t face or truly think abt

and i am really happy as it will be my final decision

and i realised tht was what i preferred

i'll just treat you as a friend, an old friend

nothing more than tht.