Dreams,

"If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were."

Received a msg from Jeannette at 5.01am in th morn.

th msg reads:

Omg, saw WL online. We talking, then he keep talking abt melvin. Wtf. Saying ask melvin to cut me botak. Omg! He just ask me abt u! Woohoo.

when i saw this i didn't know how t react except for replying,

so what did he asked?

and she told me he asked if i was okay and if everything was fine.

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how much i told everyone you were such a bustard

but deep inside i know it still matters t me

when i saw you on th bus and you didn't bother smiling back when i smiled at you,

and how when we met at th bus stop and met eyes t eyes and turned away

how much melvin kept saying tht he thinks tht i still hope for you t be here

but i just kept on denying th fact tht actually i do.

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was your guilt engulfing you, tht's why you didn't dare t look at me

worried tht your guilt would really drown you?

were you sorry for breaking all the promises you made?

were you sorry for treating me like how you did in th past?

were you sorry for not telling me yourself tht you wna breakup,

and tht was our final breakup.

was it true tht you were afraid t hear me cry

and how you couldn't bear t let me go if you hear me cry?

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bfor tht, i never once thought you felt bad for what you did when i bump into you

all i could ever think when i saw you was,

damn. it's him agn, what a bustard.

but now, aftr what jeannette told me

i feel tht maybe, just tht -maybe.

you might have felt bad doing all these t me,

maybe- if you really heard how I cried and screamed tht night,

you couldn't bear t let me go.

maybe tht was why everytime when we bump into each other

you look away fast and th fact for being with you for almost 3 yrs.

when you look down on th ground, you feel down.

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maybe this is time t really let you go.

not t have tht little hope in you anymore.

because if we were meant t be,

you would have been here beside me

when thr were times tht i needed you th most,

i would have been able t seek comfort in your arms.

and we would be creating more memories and thr would be more cruise trips.

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all those special memories of us tht we started creating

from how we met on 2003 star cruise's christmas countdown

till th very last day we met at Sunplaza

would always be kept deep in my heart.

what we once enjoyed can never be lose, all tht we love deep eventually becomes a part of us.

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and these thus cease my hatred for you.

it has been more then 4 yrs since we break off all contacts

but still i hope all th best for you & your current gf

and wished tht one day, you will wake up and realised tht you need t mature

Qi baby just told me you had a recent court case.

it's time for you t wake up now and work hard for th future.

Don't just waste your life like tht

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but still, thks aw weiliang for once being th most impt person in my life.